Its spooky cold out there, the veinly thoughts inside keep up the heat as I amble through the semi-lit corridors on this late winter night. I love when its dark, I want things explained, I like seeing things through the dark. When dark, I beleive I observe things normally abated from humans dwelling in good times. Good times keep us dull, dark times reveal a starry aspect of one's persona; provided one loves dark times. I love it. Yeah, I am different-Guess what??
- You know how weird it is, how dismal is it to walk with two different shoes on. But once you make it a habit, you barely give a damn to this trash point. At times, my inner self keeps questioning:- Do I qualify to make up a story EVER? A story that might serve as a edition to some previously cherished thought. I am no philosophy Gurus Socrates or Robin Sharma of late, but I am in possession of that awe that keeps one driving in dark times. A feature noticeable in beasts that zoo through the jungles at night. I applaud myself at the thought of me being a beast; A peaceful Warrior; A Silent Beast. Its interesting being an unseen challenge; you knock out the lights when you surpass world's expectations. Be a mystery.
Good Luck!!
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Sunday, October 3, 2010
keep going
Timid amateurs, at some point of time had high dreams to be the lead players of the University, earn recognition, show their vigour, command respect and honour. Chance was delayed, The rulemakers kept a precious thing as T&P at bay, kept dialing OJEE. Finally dawned the judgement day. The policy makers of the Institution nominated the fate deciders of 2011 batch.
As if pushed into the rough game with no time for the rules to be learned. Had to go on anyhow. With greater power comes greater responsibility. Breakdown emotionally or physically. Not allowed!!Work trauma swept away family goof-ups, spaded social mix-ups, turned inert to feelings. This was more of being something which was not yet till then. Had to go on, no time for breakdown. At times of acute distress, used to remember a gr8 saying-"woods are hollow, dark and deep. I have a long way to go before I sleep." Everything had to continue as normally, however abnormal circumstances mi8 be. Let the world not know of the menacing senses within. Institute reopens, questions crept-in long presumed; clock ticked faster. Breathing slow, numb to all reactives, inner self kept planning. No time to pause, no scope for breakdown. Then... we were blessed with something that had never happened before. Collective interests and individual involvement fetched a professor&head in true sense to the training and placement department.
Foiled in stuck ups at steps, clogged in multifarious engagements, caught in long ni8 outs, lungs bereaved for carbon. Appetite grew for cigarettes. No idea how many sleepless ni8s, tiffnless mornings, presence less classes, yet full attendance in T&P cell. Had to keep going, I remember the day wen my ears tinkled to the news of the first company in the placement calender. What a beginning......TELCON had agreed finally. Felt as if all tense had swayed away. Good days begun. Following the list were Tata Motors, shapoorji Constructions, Vedanta. Hardly dere was time for other assignments. We were so busy with the increasing list of visiting corporates. Suddenly Drought! Complete vacuum of companies. Direction less once again. Sitting idle is the worst curse in the life of a busy man. Again "had to do sth". In a meek interim, a corporate visit was planned. the western coasts were 1st targeted-Mumbai-Pune region. Me, my best buddy, Dr. Nanda signed the trip. At such loose notch times, when you keep going, Soul keeps coining"its not you doing sth, fingers up..point to d sky, He is the one who keeps trodding you through destiny. We had no idea that our visit could be so successful. Honking cars, whistling local trains, smashing traffic, gapless sun on & sun down, & ever glittering hope.....Bas had to keep going and things had to fall in place. Here in Burla, sm gr8 pals kept the air flowing. Their wishes and Almighty's blessings made our 1st visit kiss success. Mahindra & Mahindra, as a result was the next company in the placement calender. No doubt, countless criticisms, irrepressible accusations came along-with. But had to keep going. No scope for slowing down. To this day, I sit here in my work temple. The difference den and the difference now is that I have quit smoking. Have to keep going & without the help of these meaningless addictions. Have to do something, have to keep..........
As if pushed into the rough game with no time for the rules to be learned. Had to go on anyhow. With greater power comes greater responsibility. Breakdown emotionally or physically. Not allowed!!Work trauma swept away family goof-ups, spaded social mix-ups, turned inert to feelings. This was more of being something which was not yet till then. Had to go on, no time for breakdown. At times of acute distress, used to remember a gr8 saying-"woods are hollow, dark and deep. I have a long way to go before I sleep." Everything had to continue as normally, however abnormal circumstances mi8 be. Let the world not know of the menacing senses within. Institute reopens, questions crept-in long presumed; clock ticked faster. Breathing slow, numb to all reactives, inner self kept planning. No time to pause, no scope for breakdown. Then... we were blessed with something that had never happened before. Collective interests and individual involvement fetched a professor&head in true sense to the training and placement department.
Foiled in stuck ups at steps, clogged in multifarious engagements, caught in long ni8 outs, lungs bereaved for carbon. Appetite grew for cigarettes. No idea how many sleepless ni8s, tiffnless mornings, presence less classes, yet full attendance in T&P cell. Had to keep going, I remember the day wen my ears tinkled to the news of the first company in the placement calender. What a beginning......TELCON had agreed finally. Felt as if all tense had swayed away. Good days begun. Following the list were Tata Motors, shapoorji Constructions, Vedanta. Hardly dere was time for other assignments. We were so busy with the increasing list of visiting corporates. Suddenly Drought! Complete vacuum of companies. Direction less once again. Sitting idle is the worst curse in the life of a busy man. Again "had to do sth". In a meek interim, a corporate visit was planned. the western coasts were 1st targeted-Mumbai-Pune region. Me, my best buddy, Dr. Nanda signed the trip. At such loose notch times, when you keep going, Soul keeps coining"its not you doing sth, fingers up..point to d sky, He is the one who keeps trodding you through destiny. We had no idea that our visit could be so successful. Honking cars, whistling local trains, smashing traffic, gapless sun on & sun down, & ever glittering hope.....Bas had to keep going and things had to fall in place. Here in Burla, sm gr8 pals kept the air flowing. Their wishes and Almighty's blessings made our 1st visit kiss success. Mahindra & Mahindra, as a result was the next company in the placement calender. No doubt, countless criticisms, irrepressible accusations came along-with. But had to keep going. No scope for slowing down. To this day, I sit here in my work temple. The difference den and the difference now is that I have quit smoking. Have to keep going & without the help of these meaningless addictions. Have to do something, have to keep..........
Wednesday, April 21, 2010
sweeping d interiors
To,
The most hated being,
(mentioning myself)
no internship, in doubt to grace any course dis summer.financial+time constraints bar my choices.what m i gonna do?? as usual find pearl in ditch....stitch my time to finish the courses of 7th semester.This mi8 help d poor guy working out his training and placement doabouts erstwhile. there is no light in banging father's ego. i know very well his inability to spend money, yet i m quite aware of his stupid adamancy in cloaking the 'inability' with the excuse of 'avoiding futile expenditures'.u can never resort to modify someone in ur whole life.......not even someone as close as mom.yet father is someone with whom i hate to be close, i loathe sharing anything with this man.......its a feeling earned since birth till date.keep aside......the venom keeps getting violent, leave it!!with deep breath i proclaim to struggle till end.....combating with situations,palship,near and dear,most stoically with myself.js found a medium to pen down my frustrations on the digital screen.i am all in all alone at this stage of my life.js my inner self to take me along through all wildness with acute probity of thoughts and deeds, requisite strategies and honest involvement in the most responsible endeavor ever undertaken by me in my life till date.May i discharge it with complete manliness and ever memorable manner in the positive sensitude.let each breath contribute to the sublime completion of my tnp secretary tenure.
!!AMEN!!
The most hated being,
(mentioning myself)
no internship, in doubt to grace any course dis summer.financial+time constraints bar my choices.what m i gonna do?? as usual find pearl in ditch....stitch my time to finish the courses of 7th semester.This mi8 help d poor guy working out his training and placement doabouts erstwhile. there is no light in banging father's ego. i know very well his inability to spend money, yet i m quite aware of his stupid adamancy in cloaking the 'inability' with the excuse of 'avoiding futile expenditures'.u can never resort to modify someone in ur whole life.......not even someone as close as mom.yet father is someone with whom i hate to be close, i loathe sharing anything with this man.......its a feeling earned since birth till date.keep aside......the venom keeps getting violent, leave it!!with deep breath i proclaim to struggle till end.....combating with situations,palship,near and dear,most stoically with myself.js found a medium to pen down my frustrations on the digital screen.i am all in all alone at this stage of my life.js my inner self to take me along through all wildness with acute probity of thoughts and deeds, requisite strategies and honest involvement in the most responsible endeavor ever undertaken by me in my life till date.May i discharge it with complete manliness and ever memorable manner in the positive sensitude.let each breath contribute to the sublime completion of my tnp secretary tenure.
!!AMEN!!
Friday, April 16, 2010
state of seclusion
Preoccupied with oneself leaves the entire world secluded from one's interests.the girl factor, money factor,dream factor......these are some really reckless weapons that sabotage your mixup with your planetary beings.So keep an eye over their stockpiling and their usage.....lest you might end up living-dead
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